She got everything in the divorce. She got to keep her parents, her grandparents and all the recipes we invented and tweaked together like Southern meth heads in the kitchen. She got to keep my enjoyment of Disneyland, my mechanic and sound system hookup guy. She got to keep our shared Netflix queue (because I’ve … Continue reading
Latest Entries
When You’re a Self-Proclaimed “Flake”
The thing about depression is you’ve really got to be ready to lose friends. Not even, like, “the ones who weren’t really your friends” or “the ones who weren’t worth your time anyway.” I’m talking about the ones who might have been For-Lifers had mental illness not had its fingers all up in your pie. … Continue reading
Natural Anarchy
If there’s one thing I know with all certainty, it’s that my scalp has always been a political battleground. You don’t need me to tell you that—my Instagram speaks for itself. The pictures I’ve posted with my hair straightened and burned into submission by the hot comb have far more hearts than my natural frizz … Continue reading
Holding Hands with My Mental Illness
The thing about depression is you’ve really got to be ready to lose friends. Not even, like, “the ones who weren’t really your friends” or “the ones who weren’t worth your time anyway.” I’m talking about the ones who might have been For-Lifers had mental illness not had its fingers all up in your pie. … Continue reading
How do you measure a step like this?
Yesterday I took a small step in the right direction of recovery. Three words hit me like whatever is worse than a brick, full stop, and pulled my spine inside-out in the same way an orgasm rolls through the body: “I love myself.” And it’s harder to remember some days than it is on others. … Continue reading
“I have your back if you just can’t”
honesty hour real quick guys. I’ve been off my meds for a few weeks now. my therapist, it wasn’t a good clinical relationship.he said things to me I don’t believe your clinician should ever say to you. so I stopped seeing him and therefore, stopped being able to refill my prescriptions. so I’m really volatile … Continue reading
Book Releases / Books / Videos
BLACK IRIS by Leah Raeder — An Excerpt!
Self-explanatory, but here’s a video of me reading an excerpt of Leah’s sophomore NA novel—Black Iris. I wanted to talk a little about how much this book did for me as a girl-who-also-likes-girls, but I refrained because I don’t know that I’m saying anything that would be important to anyone but me. But even if you’re … Continue reading
